Musings of a Theatre Junkie

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So, we’ve finally opened “Sweeney Todd” at Murfreesboro Little Theatre. A personal awesome achievement, if I do say. My first major role…Johanna Barker. I couldn’t be happier. ^.^

Along with theatre success i’m also making some person success in my life. I won’t talk about the details here, as they are highly private and I do not wish to have everyone and their brother know…but just rest assured I am happy with life for the most part right now. ^.^

~Kaitlyn

I wasn’t called for rehearsal, but I sat in on the ensemble learning their music for the opening ballad. My goodness they sent shivers of my spine! They sound phenomenal! It makes me a little sad that our director is not using the principal characters in the opening ballad as well…I want to be a part of that amazing sound they’re creating!

Oh well. I get my chance next week. I have my first music rehearsal on Monday of next week. Learning “Green Finch And Linnet Bird”, “Ah, Miss”, and part 1 of “Kiss Me”. So incredibly excited!!!

Also, on Tuesday night we have our showcase performance/final exam for musical theatre class. I couldn’t be more excited…getting to showcase just how much work we’ve put in all semester. I’m performing in 6 pieces.

~I’m doing a scene from “The Most Happy Fellow” with another girl in the class and i’m singing the solo from that show called “Somebody, Somewhere”.

~I’m singing Laurey’s part in “People Will Say We’re In Love” from Oklahoma.

~I’m singing Luisa’s part in “This Plum Is Too Ripe” from The Fantasticks.

~I’m doing Mrs. Lovett’s part in “No One’s Gonna Harm You” from Sweeney Todd.

~I’m tapping in the group tap number called “The Hollywood Production Code” from A Day In Hollywood/A Night In The Ukraine.

~And i’m in the group number called “Invocation and Instructions To The Audience” from Sondheim’s The Frogs.

So much going on! Eek. Wish me luck that my head doesn’t explode on the next week and a half. Hello, finals week.

Things really are not good right now in my life. Meh. I know you all don’t want to listen to my whining, so please just click away from this post right now.

~Dad’s back home and was doing well. That strange bought of confusion, slurring, hallucinating, and falling he was having was due to a medication overdose caused by his liver not processing his meds correctly. He was having his worse bought of it yet a few weeks ago and ended up in the hospital. And he started having seizures. He almost died. If we had waited to take him in another hour or so he would have been dead and I would truly be left alone in the world. We got him into a rehab where they fixed his meds. He came back home, seemed put to right, and felt like my old dad once more. He was still inexplicably losing weight, but at least he seemed back to normal for the most part. Just over the past few days, though, he’s started slurring again, losing his energy, and getting confused about things. I don’t want to go through all that again. Not now. When I finally thought I had him back to the way he was before. Please, God, not now.

~If that wasn’t enough, my grandmother was just put into the hospital for…wait for it…extreme confusion, weight loss, hallucinating, and falls. *face palm*

~And….it’s looking like I might fail a couple of my classes this semester because of how much I have missed due to having to take time away from classes to care for my father. I’m literally all he has and he is all I have. Thanks to his illnesses I have involuntarily been pulled away from my classes and schoolwork. I can’t afford to fail. If I lose even one of my scholarships I can not continue my education. My father and I are broke. We live off foodstamps and his small check from disability. This can’t happen. It just can’t.

Okay…i’m done ranting. I’ll just go curl into a corner and sob now. I would gather up with a friend and talk things over…but it seems my friends have recently started abandoning me as well. Fuck it… my pillow is a better friend right now. I can cry into it and it just provides comfort.

Thank you, Stephen Sondheim, for making Johanna’s highest note in “Sweeney Todd” only a high Bb.

To the unlucky ladies in the ensemble who have to constantly screech out high E’s….you have my condolences.